Human Evolving Life’s Problem


Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

A state of depression in a city of insomnia, where unpatient people lurk.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

To daze off, during conversation and to daze off, during listening to anything with sound or sight.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

Issue with drugs – seeing it, knowing it,
Knowing it destroyed my Earth, my Earth the creator of life
The creator of my life.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

I feel the issues that dwell with my being are, and can only be, controlled by death.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

Death is not an easy way out because God doesn’t accept suicide;
Death is a way to ease the pain, erase the hurt, put loved ones at ease
to reassure them the problem is gone.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

Why doesn’t He accept suicide?
He should understand that life and its obstacles
became too much of a challenge and curse.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

I’ve tried to succeed in life, but every goal has a downfall of an obstacle, curse, outcome.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

Sh .. Fu.. Mutha…… Got….. Son of …… Fu…. Coc…… Gurrr… Hmmm… ACHHH….

Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

If they had human volcanoes, boy oh boy, I would definitely be
a part of the hottest ones in existence
And the magma that erupted would be hella hard to stop.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

Why I cry, why I ask, why I think, why me God, why me world, why me, I ask myself.
Help is the word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.

I’ve been asking for help
I’ve been seeking some help
Can you help the helpless
Help is the world’s word my brain screams but mouth cannot let pass the lips.


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SNAKE AND THE BUSH

IT’S FRUSTRATED FROM THE SUN
IT HANGS OUT OVER THE SNAKE’S BACK
LONG THICK AND SLICK THE SNAKE IT IS
COLD-BLOODED, IN NEED OF A DARK TUNNEL NOT TOO HOT OR COLD
A STORAGE SPOT WHERE THE
LONG THICK AND SLICK
SNAKE CAN GO IN AND OUT AS IT PLEEASSES ~~

SAFE AND PROTECTED, HIDDEN FROM THE TROUBLES OF THE OUTSKIRTS.
IT’S RESTING AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT,
FROM ALL OF ITS INS AND OUTS OF THE HOLE IT FINALLY CUMS OUT OF ITS SKIN,
AND SHEDS AWAY, SHEDS UNTIL IT’S BACK IN ITS
LONG THICK AND SLICK
SKIN.
SNAKE SKIN,
SLITHERING
THROUGH THE BUSH
THE BUSH IS CUT DOWN TO A MEDIUM SO THE SNAKE IS SEEN,
ITS LONG THICK AND SLICK
SHAPE
SSSs THROUGH THE BUSH,
THE BUSH HAS A FAMILIAR SCENT A FAMILIAR FEELING.
THE SNAKE LOVES THE FEELING
OF SLITHERING THROUGH THE BUSH
ON ITS SHAFT BELLY
THROUGH THE BUSH
BACK INTO THE HOLE
AN ENJOYABLE, BIZZY DAY FOR THE SNAKE.

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I CAN SEE THE EXCITEMENT IN THOSE EYES.
THOSE EYES SO FAMILIAR WARM AND SAFE
AND LOOKS AS THOUGH THEY KAN (CAN?) AND ARE HOLDING A SECRET,
THAT SMILE SO FRIENDLY AGAIN WARM AND REASSURING.
THEN MY EYES WANDER
THEY WANDER JUST AS THOUGHTS WANDER
THEY WANDER UP AND DOWN, LEFT AND RIGHT.
ALL OVER THEY LOOK
HOPING NOT TO GET MADE,
HOPING THEY CAN ROAM FREELY AND ALL HONESTLY LOVING IT.
AROUSING THE ENTIRE BODY THAT HOLDS THE EYES.
STIMULATION OCCURS
GROWTH OCCURS,
THE HAIRS ON MY BODY STAND ERECT,
ERECTNESS IS EFFECTIVENESS.
ONE IS HAPPY WHEN HIS WHOLE BEING IS ERECT.
ERECT IS JUST ANOTHER WORD FOR UPSTANDING
AND IT FEELS GOOD TO BE THAT WAY,
INNOCENT IN EVERY WAY.


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Me Before …

Me before, I was young and innocent.
Me before, I had not one worry in the world.
Me before, I was without a care.
Me before, I was loved.
Me before, I had a future.
Me before, I had no bad friends.
Me before, I made good decisions.
Me before, I dreamed instead of constant nightmares.
Me before, I had no options.
Me before, I didn’t have children.
Me before, I was a child at age heart and appearance.
Me before, I didn’t use drugs.
Me before, I didn’t do crimes.
Me before, I didn’t think I needed help.
Me before, I wasn’t labeled (statistic).
Me before, I didn’t feel or think weak.
Me before, I didn’t contemplate suicide.
Me before, I wouldn’t have done it.
Me before, I was young without error, now I’m old with problems.

Why can’t I go back to me before.


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Don’t be shy, don’t let my stare intimidate you.
I may look as rough as a rock,
but I’m actually gentle and soft like a teddy bear.
I’m soft to the touch and warm with feeling.
Are you alike or similar in any way?
Are you comfortable like me?
If I feel comfortable
You should geel comfortable.

Are you open-minded
Or does a blindfold
Block your thoughts, visions?
Can you look in one’s eyes and
Try to figure out what their needs are?
Can you assume or make an attempt to console
Or fulfill one’s needs?
Are you afraid of error
Or of making the wrong moves

?
It’s alright to try and possibly succeed.
I would try anything once,
Because we only live once.
It’s not always about getting away with the situation,
It’s about making the best out of the situation.
A situation which could lead to happiness
Or understanding
Or just a new experience.


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I
— I am an individual
— I have issues with life, and its trials and tribulations
— I was young once, young with older characteristics
— I had stresses of the world
— I have a brain that dawns and dwells on my past neglection, poverty, hunger, struggle; adapting
— I was exposed to a lot at a young age. unbearable, unthinkable, uncontrollable; persons places and things.
— I ask constantly for a better way, I look constantly for a better way;
I begged for HELP!!!
— I pray to God for forgiveness from him from any and all that I might have hurt.

— I want to be free, I want to be loved, I need a hug, I need a kiss, I need to penetrate the problem or obstacles.
— I need to stop thinking of death every time a bad situation occurred, but that’s the only way the bad situation can cease.
— Do you think this is all depression I write, talk or think about?
— I am an individual who’s in contact with a total dilemma…….